My Shadow

My shadow's
shedding skin
I've been picking
Scabs again
I'm down
Digging through
My old muscles
For a clue

I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could have been
I've been wallowing in my own confused
Insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I wanna feel the changes coming down
I wanna know what I've been hiding
In my shadow
My shadow

Change is coming through
My shadow
My shadow's
Shedding skin
I've been picking
My scabs again

I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could have been
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
Insecure delusions

I wanna feel the change consume me
Feel the outside turning in
I wanna feel the metamorphosis
And cleansing I've endured in
My shadow
My shadow

Change is coming
Now is my time
Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I've been clinging to
Forty-six and two ahead of me

I
Choose to live and
To grow
Take and give and
To move
Learn and love and
To cry
Kill and die
And to be
Paranoid and
To lie
Hate and fear and
To do
What it takes to move through

I
Choose to live and
To lie
Kill and give and
To die
Learn and love and
To do
What it takes to step through

See my shadow changing
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way by
Stepping through my shadow
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty-six and two
Just ahead of me